This month starts the season of parties, gatherings, and get-togethers….and that means trying not to out myself as the socially defunct person I am.
Hello, my name is Emily McDonald….and I’m Socially Awkward (or SA as I like to call it). I wasn’t always this way,….or, at least I wasn’t aware of it if I was. But here I am…..trying to muddle through social situations without letting peeps know how weird and blurt-y I am. I don’t know what happens in my brain when I try to talk to others, but there must be a short or something because I often find the oddest things come tumbling out of my mouth in conversation.
For those who know me well, you know that I’m dorky and definitely weird, but I’m not so prone to acting awkward because I feel comfy around you. The awkwardness comes from trying really hard to think of what to say to those I don’t know well. I might come across as shy or quiet, but don’t let that fool you, I’m just keeping my big mouth shut so I don’t blurt out something ill-advised (yet again).
It’s not that I have really extreme opinions I’m trying to keep under wraps or a secret identity to keep, well, secret (but that would be pretty sweet, huh?). It’s just that there seems to be a disconnect from what sounds super awesome in my head and what actually comes falling outta my mouth. Yes, the words sound perfectly good and even super smart in my mind, but once they get out into the atmosphere I immediately want to grab them and shove them back into my pie hole and go hide in the corner.
You know the saying by Mark Twain: “It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to open one’s mouth and remove all doubt.” I should have this tattooed somewhere (but not really, cuz that would hurt).
This is probably the reason blogging is so enticing to me and why I LOVE texting and social media! I can totally be myself…..you know, after a few minutes of writing and re-writing what I’m going to “spontaneously” say. But you can bet it will be really funny and not at all weird or embarrassing to myself and others.
Well, after years of practice and not so many years of success….I finally think I have this problem solved. I think this is the year that I will make sure to attend ALL the parties, gatherings, and get-togethers and instead of saying the wrong thing….I will just carry my phone around and have texting conversations instead. I’m confident that’s gonna totally cut down on the awkwardness!